[thecritta]

Hello all as you know i have had a rather unfortunate problem but now i have reached
the point where i am sick of relapsing and i got aneros prostate massagers back from
a friend who has been holding them for quiet some months to prevent me from using
them, and he finally gave them back to me and what did i do i could resist anymore
and have done it for the final last time thats right i couldnt help myself and in they
went now the muscles to the side left and right must be torn i can feel them stretching
and they do hurt a little, but i am afraid this time the only way to recover is to get rid of
them all i cannot trust myself with them around they are too close so they have to go
and i am sick and tired of this problem sick and tired of starting again now i seriuosly
doubt the future of any aneros usage to me, i will have to wait and see until the problem
is gone completely and i have seen the doctor.

I still have to wait four months for my appointment until i get just a consultation with the
colorectal surgeon if i had seen them earlier things would not be soo bad it makes things
worse having to wait not knowing what is wrong, i have tried going to a different GP close
to my original one twice to ask for an earlier appointment and the lady i saw there said i
would have to wait and that there was no shortcuts, as i understand they have a lot of
people and are very busy, but i dont really care i dont care what their excuse is they are
always underfunded being a free public health care system the doctors simply dont listen
dont understand the importnace urgency of my situation that needs to be looked at, and
i guess on the other hand there are people that i waiting for their turn to and that i can
understand and kind of feel sorry for them too but seven months is just ridiculous had
i seen them sooner i probably would be sitting here wondering what the problem is and
had i have seen i would probably know what the problem is what i have to do good or bad
implications but now it is very bad and i have had enough of this the msucles will never be
as strong as they used to be and i dont know where this puts me so where does it put me
does anyone know?

I have caused myself soo much pain it is not funny i am in too much right now i am of course
very depressed and in a lot of pain silly me and know i feel very empty sad depressed inside
like there is a huge hole in my soul like i have nothing left anymore no aneros no woman
only god knows what the future holds for me anything but this crap hole, i cannot tust myself
with aneros around me it would be a load of my mind but at the same time it makes me sad
to get rid of them, i feel sorry for the many models i own, but this is the only way out.

I was thinking i could maybe give them to some members if anyone wants them or i could just
throw them in the bin, i am sorry for all the trouble i have caused anyone i have upset i dont really intend
to hurt people but sometimes not very often occasionally i can do this, i will probably give it another
crack when my problem is finally fully healed recovered i simply still cannot get myself too simply just
give up the aneros dream maybe i should idk, but my addcitive nature has got the better of me and
nothing can ever replace aneros it's like something you cannot replace with something else, and even
before i used them i knew it wasnt really going to work and tried to convince myself not to do it
and just to wait, but the desire was too strong and i gave in shame on me, if only i was a normal
person not sick and suffering all the time, i have dream that will probably never be relaised and that
is that oneday soon they will find a cure for alcoholism and hopefully drug addiction and substance
addiction and hopefully all addictions so every single still suffer practicing alcoholic can have a cure
if they so desire a doorway to freedom, everything i want a doorway to a new beggining without
many problems a new day a new freedom and happiness at long last but i know this will probably
never happen this way anyway.

And for now i will try to continue doing the A.A program as this seems the only way there, and i will
still be around here no matter what even if it is just to chat about whatever or i can simply make the
hard choice and never come back which i dount i can do.

So take care all for now and many thanks for your help love care and support i will love you guys always

Cheers thecritta

[MyTurn]

I am sorry to hear about your problems, man.

- Did you feel when you injured yourself? Did you not use enough lube or manipulate the Aneros manually?
- How is BM for you now? Painful?
- Did you have success with the Aneros? Super Os?

[pnoman]

Sorry to hear of your situation, critta. I hope you heal quickly. Your posts have kind of scared me and make me think twice about my aneros usage! Do you feel that the aneros caused this condition? Or is it because of the long dildos you were using?

[The_Bishop]

I think it is good idea.

[Cockadoodle]

Yeah, Critta, good idea, mate. Take some time....get well. You've got a whole lifetime ahead of ya.

Blessings, brother.

Cockadoodle