Posted by on 2010-12-24 19:38:00
Session Length: NA
Models Used: N/A
I've had two primary sexual fantasies through my life. One is to be a woman, the other is to be a sex slave. I feel like the Aneros has allowed me to fulfill those fantasies. Of course, the Aneros hasn't turned me into a woman, nor have I become a sex slave. (Or at least any more of a sex slave than I already was.) But it has fulfilled the underlying desire expressed in those fantasies.
When I fantasize that I am a woman, I am never interested in men. I'm interested in myself. Wondering what it would be like to experience pleasure as a woman. I think the sex slave fantasy is a rebellion against a fairly repressed, mid-west upbringing. Mother's message of "don't touch yourself" becomes a desire to be forced to touch yourself. Forced to experience sexual pleasure.
With the Aneros I've found keys to sexual pleasure that make me feel like both fantasies are fulfilled. I give myself completely to a session, and during that time I allow myself to be a slave to my pleasure. I simply can't imagine a woman's extended, multiple orgasm as being better. Maybe it is, but this'll do.
I'm only two weeks into this, and it seems to be developing quickly. And there is no end in sight.