On the subject of losing motivation
Posted by on 2009-01-19 01:54:00
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Well, it's been one and a half months so far and I have not made much if any progress. My sessions are still without much result. But I will not elaborate much on this; there are a number of other journals I have posted about the situation already.
I'm finding myself losing motivation to continue. At first I started this daily. Then I went every other than, and now the frequency of my sessions are getting lesser in time. I suppose I may be losing hope as time goes on.
I am a little relieved whenever I read the forums, seeing how there are others who have experienced this sort of difficulty when they started out. However, I still have to tread carefully. The forums and blogs create the illusion that I am part of the minority here, a very small one at that. And the more I read about the more rapid success of others, the more I feel inferior or somehow cheated.
Thankfully when it comes to the actual sessions, I tend to be in greater control of my doubts and other thoughts, though this doesn't seem to help much at all in terms of my aneros progress. I suppose I still have a ways to go before it can be considered truly hopeless for me, so I will continue as long as I can.