Posted by Love_is on 2009-08-27 15:13:00Session Length: no ideaModels Used: none
So as of yesterday I seem to finally be back in peak arousal. It's probably been somewhere around one week since I last ejaculated. And it doesn't take much to get me aroused and for the pleasure sensations in my perineum, anus, and prostate to occur. :D
So yesterday my anus was a little sore from what I think was just too much Aneros action that I was doing daily. So I consciously made a decision to give myself a day off from it. But in the mean time that day, I once again had two amazing no-Aneros sessions in the morning and evening! These are by far, once again, my best sessions yet! Really pleasurable! And I remember at one point in the first session where I felt a sense of sexual satisfaction. That was a first for not ejaculating! I don't really understand why the sitting position with no-Aneros gives me better results than an Aneros session. But I guess I'm not really complaining at this point. Just curious. So I'm starting to wonder if I am perhaps experiencing some sort of mini or dry orgasm already without really knowing it. I feel like there is certainly further to go with this. But perhaps I am closer, or already there.
Buster clued me into this idea during last weekends chat session. His thoughts were that the circling the drain feeling is where you need to be. That is the super-O feelings, or what becomes them as you become more conscious and observant of the sensations. Any thoughts?
Posted by Love_is on 2009-08-25 14:31:00Session Length: N/AModels Used: N/A
So today, during some back forth e-mails with Aneros Support. I found out that they have on record the date of my first Aneros purchase, the Helix. Turns out my prior estimates of usage were short by about 3/4 of a year. I purchased my Helix 12/04/06. So it's been close to 2 and 3/4 years I've been using Aneros prostate massager's. And still I'm grinding away towards super-O achievement. :D
If I had known in advance it was going to take this amount of time, I'm not sure I would have started the journey. Thankfully I'm in a good state of mind and can just chuckle about it. And it's been fun and down right fascinating to observe the changes and sensations in the mean time!
Posted by Love_is on 2009-08-01 01:50:00Session Length: No ideaModels Used: None, and then the Progasm later
So yesterday, after two or three days of ejaculation abstinence, I was having a no-Aneros session in my computer chair while looking at some porn on the internet. I was having some pretty strong prostate buzzing sensations prior to this, which prompted me to have this session. And boy was I glad I did. Lately for some reason, the involuntaries have been close to non-existent in my no-Aneros sessions which is unusual. And I had no idea why. So I figured since I wasn't getting much response in that department anyway, I'd experiment with just relaxing my anal and PC muscles. And WHAM! The pleasure and energy sensations in my prostate jumped up a notch in a new way than I had experienced before and were oh so delightful! In addition to the involuntaries returning and adding very significantly to the pleasure and build up. I never got past this plateau. But it is a new record for me. And without an Aneros! The only thing I can figure is that maybe the PC and/or anal muscles need to tone up initially with the voluntary contractions. But perhaps once you get to the point where they are in shape and strong. You need to change your strategy to relaxing them instead. Just a hypothesis.
So later that day, I had an Aneros session with my Progasm. And I'm finding that lately these session don't compare much to my no-Aneros sessions. The pleasure is just not as intense, I don't feel the energy sensations, and because of this in frustration I often end up having a super-T. At least this time it was a good super-T! LOL
So I'm not sure if I'm going to continue having Aneros sessions, when my no-Aneros sessions seem to be progressing further and are better. One thing I have noticed, is that when my prostate swells in arousal. It leaves very little room for the Progasm to move around. It kind of holds it in place. It makes me wonder if this is why some guys like the smaller models. Perhaps it is time for me to re-visit the usage of my MGX, Helix, or Peridise to see if this makes a difference. I'm open to input from you guys that can super-O and prefer the smaller sized models. Thanks for reading :)
Posted by Love_is on 2009-07-23 01:16:00Session Length: I don't knowModels Used: Progasm
Well... So much for abstaining from ejaculation. Let me explain. Yesterday I had another morning Aneros session. It was fantastic! But no further breakthrough into finding super-O's. And then through out the day my prostate kept crying for orgasm/pleasure. It's pleasant torture, but it's still torture. So later in the day I did an no-Aneros session while looking at porn on the computer. And got much further to going over the top. I think one of the big differences between an Aneros session, and a no-Aneros session, is that I find I can squeeze voluntary contractions much harder without the Aneros inserted and get amazingly pleasurable results. Where as with an Aneros inserted, I find that harder contractions often have diminishing results. It's the lighter contractions that seem to work better with an Aneros.
So anyway, I got so close in my no-Aneros session that it frustrated the hell out of me. So I went to have another Progasm session to see if I could go further, but no luck. Actually less results than without the Aneros. So I caved in and had a super-T. Unfortunately, it felt more like I was just ejaculating, and not really orgasming. So it was a real let down in the pleasure department. But man, I sure did cum a whole bunch! LOL And at least the cries of my prostate have died down to a more tolerable level since then. I'm gonna try and give myself today off. And then back into the Aneros sessions tomorrow.
Posted by Love_is on 2009-07-22 01:09:00Session Length: Can't rememberModels Used: Progasm
So, I have to remind myself to type up these blogs right after an Aneros session. As I seem to lose a fair amount of the enthusiasm the next day. LOL
Yesterday I had two sessions. The first one was fantastic! The second a lot more milder. I seem to be back on track to not having a super-T at the end of the session. So I'm abstaining from ejaculating. Yesterdays first session was amazing, and I knew prior to starting. I was sitting at my computer, and my whole body felt electric, my nipples were constantly hard and sensitive. It felt like my whole body was charged energetically. I hardly needed any looking at porn to get me ready.
I've found recently that arching my back while laying on my back really helps with feeling pleasure. It's like the P-tab, and the head on the Progasm really hit the right spot in that position. I was able to attain a swollen, very aroused, and very sensitive prostate several times throughout the session. Also the sensitive part on the front side of the anus was really sensitive and pleasurable. Several times I could feel it move upwards towards the prostate. Wow! Boy when you can find a fantasy that really gets you going, it also really makes the world of difference.
As I type this I feel my body getting excited again. I guess I'll be having another session soon. :D LOL
Posted by Love_is on 2009-07-09 01:08:00Session Length: Who knows?Models Used: Progasm
It appears my Aneros lull has ended. I had an amazing session last night! I had the most amount of pre-cum on me that I've ever seen. And I could feel my prostate swell with arousal several different times within the session. I also felt some tingly pleasure in my prostate a few times also. Rather than just around my anus and perineum. That was really nice. I think I experienced some new highs in pleasure during this session.
As to why this lull happened? Depression and personal growth are the two main things. But also I noticed that when I was last having pleasurable sensations from Aneros sensations, I think close to a month ago. I was concentrating on the completely relax approach. And what I've found out recently is that I completely stopped doing any conscious anal and PC contractions both within and outside of an Aneros session. So I recently started doing them again. And just within a few days... Boom! Pleasure again! So for me, it seems that doing the conscious contractions are important.
There was much for me to learn during my Aneros lull though. Masturbation was rare. And when I did, I had to tell myself that it is ok to have pleasure, and that I deserve it. And I had to really practice on focusing on the sensations and any erotic fantasies to allow me to be excited to ejaculate. Sound familiar? LOL Eventually as I did this more and started doing the anal and PC contractions... Sensitivity, pleasure, and desire for it returned.
As of this last session a new thing has started happening. My upper torso and shoulders have started trembling at certain points. But also for no reason I can understand. My involuntary anal contractions have become much stronger and frequent. A few days back I had a no-Aneros session sitting in front of my computer reading erotica mostly, but also looking at some porn. When I have these type of sessions, I do my half PC, half anal contraction. But I'm able to do it much harder in a different way than when my Progasm is inserted. I assume it feels different just because there is nothing inserted in my anus. Anyways, this was the first time I experienced those stronger more frequent involuntary anal contractions. And it blew my mind! LOL It reminded me of the user here who posted about his involuntary anal contractions going "num, num, num, num". LOL It was just like that! It was wild and I loved it!
I ended up having a super-T during last night's Aneros session. And actually, in the last two or three I did the same thing now that I think about it. Part of allowing me to have pleasure if I so desire it with no guilt involved. ;) I know we are not supposed to touch our penis during an Aneros session. But the thing is, that approach when followed strictly, it puts this level of guilt on me when I do have a hands on super-T. No more! If I want to touch my penis and ejaculate during an Aneros session, I will! All of this is part of my journey. I accept that I deserve pleasure in whatever way it manifests in my life. As long as it hurts no one in the process.
Posted by Love_is on 2009-06-06 01:54:00Session Length: about one hourModels Used: Progasm
So last night I had another session. It was ok, nothing spectacular. I didn't have much luck with getting my prostate aroused prior to the session from looking at porn. I'm starting to wonder if hard exercise can lower arousal levels. As I started exercising regularly outside again since the weather has become nice, and I'm not in peak shape yet. So I'm usually fatigued and sore. Any thoughts?
What was of interest, is that since it has been eight days since I last ejaculated. I allowed myself to have a super-T at the end of my Aneros session. But the joke was on me, as I was not able to ejaculate, and eventually couldn't even stay erect. I ended the session shortly thereafter. Makes wonder about the exhaustion thing from exercise again. Although I did get some really nice involuntaries from stroking my penis.
Later that night I was able to ejaculate without an Aneros inserted. I was surprised at the large amount of ejaculate that came out. I guess eight days really builds it up! LOL
Posted by Love_is on 2009-06-03 01:15:00Session Length: N/AModels Used: N/A
So as it stands now, I feel like I have two separate but related practices going on. One is the standard Aneros session in bed using my Progasm while laying on my back with knees up. The other is sitting in my computer chair, with no Aneros inserted, while viewing or reading porn. And the interesting thing is that the effects/results are somewhat different. In both practices I do not touch my penis, unless I decide to super-T at the end. But I seem to be getting better at not allowing myself to ejaculate for longer amounts of days. My current best is 7 days.
I so far have had more pleasurable "sessions" without an Aneros in my computer chair. I get these amazing energetic sensations going up and down my torso, and the involuntary anal contractions are incredibly powerful and pleasurable feeling. I generally at some point hold a PC and anal contraction combo. Sometimes slight, sometimes hard, that really jump starts the involuntaries and pleasure. I may have just barely had a mini-O this way last week, but I'm not entirely sure. As I have nothing to really compare it against because I have not been able to experience this sensation again. I just know that it was more pleasurable than what I've experienced so far, and it seemed to have to do with the contractions and involunteries.
Where as my Aneros sessions, the energetic sensations seem to stay in my pelvic area, sometimes causing me to feel numb down there, and never go anywhere else. And the involuntaries don't seem to be as pleasurable feeling. Still nice, but it seems different than what I am experiencing without an Aneros in me. Is anyone else experiencing results in non-Aneros sessions that are different from the Aneros sessions? Or any thoughts in general?
Posted by Love_is on 2009-05-21 01:38:00Session Length: About an hour, sometimes more, sometimes lessModels Used: Progasm almost exclusively
So last nights Aneros session I noticed a correlation between when I got really aroused, my prostrate swelled in size, as did my nipples. My nipples became much more erect and sensitive as I played with them. I was surprised to realize this. Too bad it didn't last all that long. Makes me wonder if this is what women feel in their nipples when they are excited.
But it made me also think that perhaps these physical changes and sensations in my prostrate and nipples are the lead up to a super orgasm experience. Anyone care to comment?
Posted by Love_is on 2009-05-18 01:30:00Session Length: N/AModels Used: N/A
So the last couple sessions I've had, I ended up having an Aneros assisted super-T at the end of each one. And it made me realize for those of us that have not achieved super-O's yet, how difficult it can be at times to resist the urge to have an ejaculatory orgasm during an Aneros session.
It makes me ponder if this boils down to once again expectations of the session, or just plain over horniness. The sessions I'm having now feel fantastic, but I haven't been able to cross the super-O line yet. It's early on in this new approach, so I'm not complaining by any means. But I recognize how frustrating it is for the pleasure not to peak into orgasm. It's like it is just a constant sexual tease, and no relief. I get the feeling that getting aroused prior to the session perhaps works against me in the sense that maybe it sets up expectations of sexual orgasm relief. Which for now only occurs with ejaculation. I may have to try a few sessions that don't involve any prior arousal.