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About to explode

Things are stabilizing these weeks. Had a few days pause and now Im back, the first days I went full throtle and achieved nothing.

But yesterday I just slipped peridise and started reading some sex book and found my self floating in pleasure waves, after that, inserted the eupho and mmmm more intense even. I had to put the book down after 20minutes, couldnt read straight.

Tonight same thing, picked up some erotic book and started reading and getting turned on with the eupho inside, I didnt even get to the kinky part of the chapter before the p-waves took over, when they subsided, went to peredise and the ride continued in a different way.

I like how reading something takes my mind out of the aneros toy, and it starts taking life of its own. The problem might be with the possitions.

I lost the count of how many days Ive been on fast but my guess is about 7. I'm like going through some tantric "point of no return" practice. For those not familiar with the practice it consists on building up just before the point of no return, and chanelling the energy upwards through the midline. Its normally recomended to open the heart chakra before all others. Done right you dont really have to make PC contractions that stop the flow, although sometimes they become necesarry and some ejaculation is lost. But its not only about ejaculation, its about keeping the energy of the orgasm. Aneros P-waves and orgasms have helped me reconect with other types of pleasure sensations and releases, and this practice is becoming easier and easier. Once Ive gone through 5 or so orgasms, I no longer have the urge to cum really and my body is pulsating.

As for now my energy feels terrific. Im doing Key sound two times per week. Im currently not seeing anyone but myself, which means Im spending a time taking care of myself and making love to myself. Its beautyfull!! I go through my practice of hygene, self massage, erotic touch, masturbation and end with aneros orgasms. Thats whats in it for me now, I sleep like a baby and Im very much in love with myself at this point. I try to say nice things to myself and forgive myself often. I realize that at times Im much of a pleaser with everyone else and havent payed much attention to me.

My meditation practice has evolved at this point, I dont practice long sessions, just 24 minutes a day upon waking. All the orgasmic release has helped to drain/keep at bay some deep kind of tension stored within. Keeping my mind clear and unfocused is easier, I find myelf concentrating on stillness with an unfocused/deatached gaze (eyes close), and finding that place where I dont care about time, things happen but Im not really bothered, everything is just as it is. And Im having moments that when resting in that place I wake up inside my meditation as if I had had a nap, and I dont know how much time had passed. Like experiences of no time.

Anyway to comment on eupho. Very disapointed at first, had the impression that it was exactly like the helix, but... things have changed these last few session, I have the feeling its helping me awake the area, all the movement makes it feel like a giant peridise. The cool pattern Im feeling within lately is that I keep having different aneros combinations all the time. At some points Im thinking, simple is best and that I could live on peridise or helix alone. At others I think that eupho and progasm is all I ever need to give giant scope of experiences... etc.

Told my best friend about Key Sound and Aneros. I'm buying him peridise beginers set as a present for him. Hes happy, although he has never gotten any pleasure from the back door and has doubts in his mind. Hes got a bit of hemorroids going on, very subtle, some bleeding every other month. So Im guessing it will be a good introduction to anal play and to the control of the aneros. After that I'll buy him a MGX/Helix and let him fly alone and decide after that.

Im loving all these new gateways and experiences and some of my fantasy thoughts right now are being to be able to share all this with some future partner. Im doing a bit of investigating on female orgasms and a few threads here have helped, although if someone had some recomendations they would be welcome.

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Logging out

Im just recovering from a five hour marathon which Ive decided marks the end of my little honeymoon with myself in the quest for the mistery, the orgasm, the new plane, whatever... Ive been 24 days hitting aneros and self-tantra on an average of 1.5 sessions a day. Now is the time to take a break and settle into a moderate approach, I feel the door has been unlocked.


The session - Random data:
- The session was a combination of tantric masturbation and aneros (four hours prior I had been doing 10 minutes Key Sound practice)
- Cannabis was involved
- I went through various liters of water and 6 pieces of frui tin the process
- I kept having voices in my head with all sorts of information on the forum throwing at me tips here and there
- I did my fare share of trying not to cum as an exercise and it was very intense
- I was constantly switching between all my aneros toys: peridise, progasm, eupho and helix
- I used more lube that what Im normally used to. Ocasionally I would inject some water to awaken the lube that was already there to give it a floatiness, in order to get super movement. My guess with the rectum is that a lot of the fluid is reabsorbed through the walls anyway, which explains in a way why waterbased lubes loose their stay in a closed envioroment were there is no theoretical loss of humidity
- Once I felt I had unlocked the door I remembered what other veterans said. That when I start having the super-o's, I would be able to get orgasms with any toy in any position. Which proved to be
- As I write I feel an orgasm ready to explode just waiting for a pc squeeze to let it happen
- Peridise and Eupho are my favourite models no doubt about it. Eupho is superior to helix, Progasm just cant compare in the pleasure generating department at this point. Peredise works different to the other models, it plays a league of its own. So Eupho and Peridise is for me, in that order even better. I think I just love the feeling of the two most mobile models in an extra lubed enviroment
- My next objective are musicgasms soon. Ive had them in the past and Im quite sure they can be replicated
- I experimented new things with the progasm, which I have never gotten powerful results like with the peridise and the eupho. When I was in the middle of an orgasm that was taking me over I would insert the progasm and go through the orgasm with it inserted which amplified and re-feeded the orgasm with close to no effort at all.
- Most of the time I was having the sessions were enormous waves of pleasure / super-O, some more intense than others. I noticed a wide variety of orgasms and sensations throughout the process. Different toys gave me different sensations
- My favourite combination by far is eupho and peridise. I repeted the combo constantly throughout the session. Starting with eupho, when the pleasure was invading me I would remove and insert peridise instantly and the sensations would go down for a few seconds and then the fluttering sharp sensations of peridise would trigger a nice and powerful orgasm
- At the end of the session I was well charged and try to lie passive on the bed and something took over, my body would involutarily start shaking and orgasms would flow through my body very sofly but non stop. I had no toy at that point and inserted the progasm in the middle of the orgasm. My pelvis was doing involutary rocking like in sex. I would then start taking all the positions I had and released different movements throughout the body with cascades of memories of sensations of pleasure lived in this position. I think the progasms helped a lot in catapulting this experience into a non-stop orgasm. I always felt I could pull out of the orgasm if I choosed but I did so through a quick ejaculation (today is number 8 of my ejaculatory fast), and because it was so quick and with no build up there was not much to ejaculate. The again I noticed a landing sensation of the whole body were all the energies floating around would settle, and settle, there was at least five minutes of continual waves of relaxation that were very warm and filling until I got up to go to the bathroom and get ready to go to sleep.


I feel very loving towards everything right now and the universe has conspired to put a girl on my way very soon. I recieved a phone call from a good friend of mine and couldnt stop flirting and teasing her in a very playful little boy type way. Priceless. I havent had sex/proper dates in a few months and Im not nervous at all with the outcome of the relationship, I feel like exposing myself just as I am and have her accept it or not. I feel very sexy and find her very sexy too.

Well, Ive probably left a ton out of what acutally happened tonight. But this for me closes a chapter in my search. I hope some of all this is helpful/amusing for someone, I wrote it for my self too. If anyone whants to expand or discuss any of this go ahead. The sensations were way better than any drug Ive tried (havent tried much though: mdma, shrooms, weed...

In general this is crazy if someone would have told me a month ago what I was going to go through... mindblowing. Todays session was legendary but all the sessions that preceeded this one had hints of what this one was about. The moment I started the session I had an intuition as to where this was all headed. Each day Ive been feeling more and more charged with energy. I remember what David Deida commented on sexual energy, its all about generating it and to progresively be able to hold more and more of it in the body. Meditation, sport and relaxation exercises are making the excess of new energy more tolerable I feel.

Very long post but this is goodbye for my blog and continual updates, from now on I'll be around anyway.

Thankyou so much to everyone on the site!!! Loved a few of the blogs, and the posts that are pure gold, Im creating my own little diary of orgasm just to keep track of the links to those discussion and the information Im learning on the way.

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Ive started dating myself

Things are stabilizing these weeks. Had a few days pause and now Im back, the first days I went full throtle and achieved nothing.

But yesterday I just slipped peridise and started reading some sex book and found my self floating in pleasure waves, after that, inserted the eupho and mmmm more intense even. I had to put the book down after 20minutes, couldnt read straight.

Tonight same thing, picked up some erotic book and started reading and getting turned on with the eupho inside, I didnt even get to the kinky part of the chapter before the p-waves took over, when they subsided, went to peredise and the ride continued in a different way.

I like how reading something takes my mind out of the aneros toy, and it starts taking life of its own. The problem might be with the possitions.

I lost the count of how many days Ive been on fast but my guess is about 7. I'm like going through some tantric "point of no return" practice. For those not familiar with the practice it consists on building up just before the point of no return, and chanelling the energy upwards through the midline. Its normally recomended to open the heart chakra before all others. Done right you dont really have to make PC contractions that stop the flow, although sometimes they become necesarry and some ejaculation is lost. But its not only about ejaculation, its about keeping the energy of the orgasm. Aneros P-waves and orgasms have helped me reconect with other types of pleasure sensations and releases, and this practice is becoming easier and easier. Once Ive gone through 5 or so orgasms, I no longer have the urge to cum really and my body is pulsating.

As for now my energy feels terrific. Im doing Key sound two times per week. Im currently not seeing anyone but myself, which means Im spending a time taking care of myself and making love to myself. Its beautyfull!! I go through my practice of hygene, self massage, erotic touch, masturbation and end with aneros orgasms. Thats whats in it for me now, I sleep like a baby and Im very much in love with myself at this point. I try to say nice things to myself and forgive myself often. I realize that at times Im much of a pleaser with everyone else and havent payed much attention to me.

My meditation practice has evolved at this point, I dont practice long sessions, just 24 minutes a day upon waking. All the orgasmic release has helped to drain/keep at bay some deep kind of tension stored within. Keeping my mind clear and unfocused is easier, I find myelf concentrating on stillness with an unfocused/deatached gaze (eyes close), and finding that place where I dont care about time, things happen but Im not really bothered, everything is just as it is. And Im having moments that when resting in that place I wake up inside my meditation as if I had had a nap, and I dont know how much time had passed. Like experiences of no time.

Anyway to comment on eupho. Very disapointed at first, had the impression that it was exactly like the helix, but... things have changed these last few session, I have the feeling its helping me awake the area, all the movement makes it feel like a giant peridise. The cool pattern Im feeling within lately is that I keep having different aneros combinations all the time. At some points Im thinking, simple is best and that I could live on peridise or helix alone. At others I think that eupho and progasm is all I ever need to give giant scope of experiences... etc.

From progasm Im getting strong sensations but nothing magical like with other models. I pop it in once in a while just to get that big stimulation and to give it a go once in a while.

Told my best friend about Key Sound and Aneros. I'm buying him peridise beginers set as a present for him. Hes happy, although he has never gotten any pleasure from the back door and has doubts in his mind. Hes got a bit of hemorroids going on, very subtle, some bleeding every other month. So Im guessing it will be a good introduction to anal play and to the control of the aneros. After that I'll buy him a MGX/Helix and let him fly alone and decide after that.

Im loving all these new gateways and experiences and some of my fantasy thoughts right now are being to be able to share all this with some future partner. Im doing a bit of investigating on female orgasms and a few threads here have helped, although if someone had some recomendations they would be welcome.

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EVOLGING

After an initial success with the aneros and taking some time off Im back with mistress aneros. I bought myself eupho and probe lubricant which I saw a lot of recomedations for mmmm cant wait to try it all out.

I havent had a lot of progress lately with mind blowing orgasms, rather the contratry, the peak moments are backing up a little bit. But Im extremly happy with the discovery of this world of orgasm (slowly doing KSMO too). One thing that surprised me the other day is that I got turned on and started slowly manualy pulling peridise in and out and to my surprise got a very short but very strong orgasm, like a hammer. There are orgasms all over the body waiting to be unlocked.

My experience is being more internal.
- Im four days into a ejaculatory fasting, and doing some traditional tantric (pc squeeze) here and there, and the aneros. The energy inside of my seems to be building up.
- My state of mind is becoming plesant. My emotions are starting to unwind themselves. Im having a natural high all day, mellow but present.
- Orgasmic waves (or whatever you want to call them) are coming and going through my body all day.
- I definitely have feelings of Kundalini awakening. Ive had them before by accident but through this practice and training I seem to be able to take hold of the process and am able to play and build up the energies of the body
- Im generally more at ease with myself and my libido and erections have incresed (I have a bit of ed and low libido btw)
- Things seem new. Im becoming more playful and loving with people. Going back to being a younger more inocent and vulnerable me.
- Its easier and more natural not to judge things and not to criticise and feel jealousy towards others.
- A lot of these sensations are sublte but present non the less

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BIG breakthrough

More aneros practice.

These days have been an awakening for me. I can feel energy tingling through my body and have afterglow effects if Ive had a good session of aneros.

Im getting sore at this point and Im going to give myself a bit of a break. I have lube problems too. Im ordering some new varieties ASAP so I can go back to my training. Its hard not to continue on practicing, everyday I go at it I reach something new. Now its not only about pleasure, its about training. In some sessions Im not even worried about what I achieve in that session but rather I playing with the orgasm and seeing its qualities rather than trying to make it explode. Im not dying for the orgsm to happen, I build it up and even tease my body to see how that alters the feeling. I make some squeezes voluntarily and let the pleasure accumulate, I practice with light contraction, when I feel Im almost there, I relax and chillout for a bit and then go back to it...

This was not obvious for me at the begining but there are a lot of muscles down there that we can call upon not just pc and sphicter muscles. I thought there was only two movements, and even these two seem to be a combination of other ones. Im specially referring to the muscle in the rectum; pulling in, rocking, squeezing...

Im in a constant altered state of mind:
- Aparently slow, stoned and unfocused, but at the same time...
- Im rarely sleepy, dont get really tired
- Im very creative and expressive when I want to, have better access to my emotions (I can see into them)
- Just strange
- A bit disociated and not to worried about anything

Ive had a few breackthroughs with my normal orgasms, Im at the point right now that when masturbating myself I can take a build up and spread it through my body. In the moments when Im about to orgasm, I start slowly squeezing my asshole and a bit of the pc muscles to and slowly start to invoque the orgasmic sensations, I then get to the point of no return and then squeeze the pc muscles enough to garantee no fluid is coming up and I let the orgasm flow upwards with shakes and tingling sensations. It seems that now when Im able to decide how I want to have the orgasm, through ejaculation or having an internal orgasm like the ones Ive learned to have with aneros.

And these orgasms are quite satisfying too, when I go through cycles of 3-8 of them I get a window that lets me stop the session with no urge to ejaculate. Through these dry orgasms I manage to build and build the excitement, but after each one there is a period of restimulation and each time its harder to go into the zone with good harness, but when I do get there I have more energy pumping through my hole body.

I have to say that I had practice this type of tantric orgasm technique that I learned in Margo Wood's book (which I strongly recomend). But never did I feel a real orgasm this way, not the pleasure with which Im feeling them now anyway. And the training in pelvic floor muscles that Ive had these days, specially in awareness more than in strengthening, has enabled this technique to be more effortless. Where as before I would clench my whole body, now I just hold a nice powerful and confident squeeze and allow myslef to enjoy the orgasm while caresing myself and my penis.

Im going to soon start a blog where Im going to copy and paste my first blog here's and I'll post on there my progress if anyone wants to follow it. I will keep posting and continue my investigation in the aneros website. There is loads of information hidden in the posts and in the blogs. An entire book could be written really.

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Hitting hard

OK, Im officially overdoing it a bit, but Im going to be quite occupied in the next days so I wont be able to access the aneros at all. Yesterday I did another big session.

Beautiful pleasure waves, and some O's, some MO's. But in general I have a feeling for the intensity of them that they can be more powerfull, like the one I had at the end of the-day-before-yesterday session.

Learnts quite a few things though
- I learnt to enjoy the smallest model of the advanced peredise set, incredible sensations. Im guessing its going to be my favourite, the bigger one is good for warming up though
- I like playing a bit with different models because I get the feeling that it awakens the are in different ways, specially the progasm. I started to apreciate it for the first time. The sensations are very powerful, to get the best out of it there is more practicing than meets the eye
- I practiced the Key Sound warming up for my third and last round yesterday, I see it possible creating combined sessions, but maybe only using peredise to slowly tickle the area and ripple pleasure out a bit. But Im not going to try to invent the wheel here, in the begining I'll leave a time were I'll just trust the systems I see.
- After concentrating on the waves of pleasure and amplyfing and playing with them, I am more aware of them in other moments that are not solely with prostate stimulation. One of my big breakthroughs is actually enjoying an orgasm stimulating my penis and squeezing to prevent ejaculation when in the point of no return. I had experience in that method but never have I been aware enough to actually enjoy it.
- I starting to get involuntary contractions in the pelvic floor muscles and little surges of energy without the toys being inserted. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the peridise sensations mmmmm. I'll say it over and over, Im going to take him everywhere with me

My breakthroughs this week have benn quite significant for me. I have to say that they are not created by the aneros, but aneros was one of the missing keys. Ive set asside time from work and society to enjoy this moment and plan to do bit more of that this month, call it honeymoon.

One book that I encourage everyone to read, that I think nobodys mentioned but that I enjoyed deeply was: "Masturbation: Tantra of Self-Love by Margo Woods". Ive done further reading on the subject but this little book gave me all I ever really needed to know about, tantra and masturbation (its a woman writing it to, very liberating and stimulating read)

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next movement

I havent got a clue!!! Its certainly one of the sports in sexuality for me. Just staying on the edge of the cliff with slowmotion carresses, savouring the intensity of the sensation. Sometimes whenever Im at that point I focus on how much I deeply crave my fantasy or object of desire... That sensation I have tried to carry it on to aneros session, where there is no more feeling involved but I have lived the sensation of wanting to cum so bad.

Again, I dont know if it really helps, but its one of the intensity building tools, depends on what you want the intensity for of course. Masturbation wouldnt be the same without it for me. I say masturbation because I happen to be single, and Im a happy sexually satisfied single!!! I dont need anyone. If there is someone who I really want to share intimacy with and they with me thats fine. But Im not chasing booty for the sake of it. I dont need anyone to be happy. If I find someone I'll share my happyness. Mmmm this week I might be going out with good friend of mine. I can imagine just having orgasms just by hugging her.


BTW: Ive had a few p-waves and one O just sitting down and remembering my experience yesterday.

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peridise has arrived

MMMM... recieved the peredise today morning in the mail

I bought the advanced model thinking that I was going to want the advanced model anyways and because I couldnt be bothered buying all 4.

I downloaded the the hynoaerosession yesterday too.

Im going for the whole pack here.

Had a session with peridise and hypno a while ago. The experience was quite nice, I really liking it. I dont think its perfect but its well worth it. Musics good (too good music sometimes distracts me), sexy voice, ocasional woman humming in pleasure (nice nice nice inspires me to do the same), the constant reminders are golden.

I fell asleep for a minute or ten just to wake up to a sexy voice ordering me to carress myself and slowly start making contractions mmmmmm yes mistress.

Did some of the reading rumel sent me on his PM (thankyou for that).

During the session, I was almost there a few times, and thanks to the hypnoaneros I followed through with the rule of not touching my cock, it was a turn on actually. I ended the session no problem and relaxed for 5 minutes and went back to studying.

Misteress Aneros is calling me, she is possessive... My plans for now are to enjoy my little honeymoon with her and then skip back a bit and just do it a few times a week.

Nice mirror tip darwin. No women around now in my life and there will probably not be there for a few months. I had a big break not to long ago and loving myself I found is a department I was lacking. In the past self pleasuring only involved my cock and porn, and it seems a bit selfish looking back. Love others through yourself. Already I find myself being more loving to other people.

It was unthinkable a month ago that this little toy would spice up the relationship with myself to these depths. This little toy is just a tool, its all a mental thing and the forum is really helping me.

Big thankyou for the guys taking the effort to help others out. A forum for a begginer can be too much information. Having experienced user point out the valuable topics is golden.

Bought the hypnaerosession to give support with out really looking if it would suit me. As Ive described before, Im loving it and 25$ is nothing.

A few tips for expanding the sessions
- A dirtier version
- A male voice
- Other female voices reading the script / or different variations of it anyway
- People could buy their initial session at one price and only pay a little plus to get variations on it (like 25$ initial price and then 10$ each new flavour of session)
- The session could be seen as a way to support and develop the forum

The session is very good anyway, it reminds me a bit of p. scheele

I have a question though... are stereo headphones at all necessary? (what type of brain entertainment is used)

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First O's

Yesterday night I had a big breakthrough in my experience level. I did a little marathon on my own with a bit of everything, 4 hours total, result, a lot of enjoyable p-waves, getting stronger and stronger as the night progressed, the night strangely culminated in a two super-Os back to back (or at least I thought thats what they were, if that wosent one, I cant wait).

What I did.

- My typical preparation (shower/enema/lube)
- Put on the helix had a bit of weed and put on the hynaerosession
- I experimented with having growing feelings expanding through my body rising from the contractions below, sometimes I was trying with the holding the contraction and sometimes playing on letting the aneros take control and just being a witness to the sensations arising. Bodyshivers, P-waves that went through me constantly getting bigger and bigger. What I was doing different than other sessions was more relaxation, doing cycles of squeezes or passive aneros movements interlaced with little periods of just feeling the pleasure waves. I climed three mountains of pleasure through this method.
- Took out the helix and watched some porn while masturbating myself slowly. Went to the edge a few times and put the brakes with contactions. After having done countless contractions these last weeks with aneros this method that I had previously used seemed infinitely more easy as well as pleasurable. I didnt have to tens up all my body to ensure stopping the ejaculation, just maintained a focus block while enjoying shivers throughout my body.
- Lubed up and went for the Progasm, had a bit of weed and plugged the hypnoaerosession disk2 and relaxed for a while. Same thing climbed three big rises in a similar fasion as with the helix, experimenting with letting myself be taken over rather than trying to force the waves so much.
- Took out the Progasms, and went back to Porn and stimulation as before squeezing the PC's in order to not ejaculate.
- Last round, peridise. I went gradually through little mountains and valleys, feeling more and more energy present in my body. Rising without any rush, two steps forward one step back, climbing and climbing. I was almost falling asleep when a big wave of energy washed my whole body, I was paralyzed, couldnt move a muscle... like a sea o energy/pleasure, I was stunned for a few minutes, I opened my mouth and emited some sexual noises to accompany the experience, turn to one side huged a big long pillow and went through it.
- When I got up my legs were moderately shaking. 4 hours had gone by. Mistress aneros had shown me her tounge, but also her teeth. I could spend days on end building and building the excitement and pleasure.

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1st attempt

Hello everyone

I had a some awakenings this past years through some life experience and I definitely had quite a big boost going through craniosacral work and rolfing. Basically a lot of emotional release, whole body highs etc... Since those episodes I have been experiencing full body orgasms and the ability to cicle and move and expand something in my body which I am not yet aware what it is or what it dose. Reading the aneros forum and some KSMO post, what people where talking about seemed familiar. So I went ahead and orderd a helix, after two weeks a progasm, and now peredise is on its way.

I dont know how I fist heard about aneros, but it stayed in the back of my head until I started to run into information and testimonials that gave me indications that this was a valid route for me to take. Although Ive experimented with the anal root on my own at points, Ive always been very turned down.

My experience

I have to say that the progasm isnt doing too much compared to the helix, but I guess it will have its place and its time! Although come to think of it, it dose reach some spots that the helix dosent, I miss the movement from helix.

I havent had full blown release orgasms yet. What I find myslef doing is slowly going into a state and roling on the bed as if possessed. I use a lot of pelvic thrusting together with the contractions. I end up ejaculating in the end most of the time because I feel trained to get that release. The orgasms are incredible combined.

Last night I broke through some of my own barriers, I had never thought about the fact of really making love to myself. I was a bit shameful, Ive done it before but not really being proud of myself. This time the underlying feeling of the session is that I was actually loving myself, as in love vs sex. And being myself that was being loved I had the feeling I was in love with the whole universe. Ok ok, so I was smoking a bit of weed and that took things to that high(t).

Shower, enema, prelube, incence... prepared near the bed where OJ, a joint, lubricant... the bed was coverd by big towels just in case.

I went full blast and tried to practice something that Ive been learning which is to let the involuntary movements of the body take over, with a little conscious guidance here and there. I inserted Helix and just left it there. Had a few tokes of MJ and started dreaming of with the music (Bjork, Sigur Ros, Moby, Ulrich Schnauss, Ram... mix selection). I put lubricant on myslef (next time I'll go for the oil or an approprite lubrication) and started massaging myself slowly, loving accepting embracing integrating whatever I found or that was in my way. I dont like my ass too much because its fat, that crossed my mind at that point, instantly I found myself massaging it and loving it, incredible, it was a big relief.

The aneros took over through involuntary contractions. But when it did stimulate I purposely forgot about its local stimulation and tried to feel its effects through the whole body and let them circulate.

Breathing was left to the body to decide, but soft moaning, heavy breathing, sometimes spontaneus inbreaths and outbreaths where there.

At some point a thought occured to me: it was like someone was making love to me but it was myself, or was it the aneros, should I fantasize about someone else doing it to me?????? should I be having someother types of fantasies since im getting it from behind??? ..... As soon as those questions poped to mind the answer came quite quickly.... Stop thinking and drop all those controlling preconceptions and just whitness and experience.

A lot of the play that was done with the aneros was through pelvic thrusting, this brought a lot of reminincens of sex into it.

At times i would have a strong surge of energy from the anus to the head and above. Usually with the sfincter muscles in full contraction and trying to draw the aneros in, and full PC contractions.

It all ended with penil ejaculation, or so I thought. Although I try to limit my ejaculations because of loosing power. I wanted to loose energy and colapse and wake up late the next day. After the ejaculation ended, it didnt. I felt for ten minutes how the energy was slowly tranmuting into something else (rather that disapearing which was how I tagged it at other time), there was a sence of settling and going into a dream/trance state. I recall waking up on my way to totall sleep not knowing if I was awake or asleep, not really caring. I woke up some time later (maybe one hour), and found myself covered with sticky lube everywhere (hair, face included), so I had an INCREDIBLE shower and went to bed.

It was a declaration of independance. Im currently single and I couldnt care less. I think it felt so good partially beacuse doing this I was adressing a few issues I had with myself and things I havent let myself be drawn into or accept.



Today just writing about it I can feel subtle waves in my body and a sence of peace, I can feel the aneros sensation inside me still, so I can really understand why at some point I wont be needing the aneros at all. The aneros brings consciousness and gives control of the area, kill sensory amnesia!


Anyway long post, hope someone got something out of it. My writing is probably shitty but better the chaos than not trying to share.

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