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NEW HEIGHTS: I haven't touched the ceiling yet

TL;DR:
* Standing sensitises the prostate
* Walking around helped a lot
* Lightly jogging really helped a lot
* Touching nipples carefully to complement
* Openly allow erotic thoughts to flow via prostate massage
* Vocal moaning = important
* But -> embarrassing and noisy :)
* Train of thought derails
* Thought train blasts off at uncontrollable speeds
* Urge to cum nears

Well, damn.

I thought it was the end of the journey for me, and searching for other goals would keep me entertained. My pleasures and sensations were as good as they'd get, and now I'm fully rewired. There's nothing more for me to uncover.

That's technically true, but tonight launched me a little bit higher.

So standing up works well with the Aneros, perhaps due to the gravity providing a counterbalance. I don't know the science, exactly, but I do ejaculate quicker when standing up masturbating. Regardless, the prostate becomes more sensitive to the Aneros. Even better: walking around. As I strolled to the kitchen, the feelings of the device rubbing couldn't be ignored. In fact, trying to ignore it would flare up an orgasm quickly. Eventually, I became horny to the point where I sped the pace up by lightly jogging on the spot. I've never had such a fast chain of Dry-O's in a long while.

The main discovery here was working with the thighs, and partly knees. They shake when arousal builds, so I'm guessing that standing helped to ground the sensations and stop them from being shaken off. )Maybe that's why the knee shakes when we're anxious: as a means of numbing the fear(

Eventually the prostate was worked to a degree that it switched 'on', and buzzed. No more walking around seemed to be required. So to compliment it: lightly touching the nipples. Before in my sessions, I'd make the mistake of getting impatient and just strum them like a guitar. The second they get touched, the arousal sparks up. I treated them more as a shortcut. Not here. Just a quick rub, and I let my mind do the rest. This is something the Wiki brings up, and it's now that this piece of advice makes a lot of sense.

Leading on from the nipples, near the end of the session an idea struck my brain — one that I'm surprised had evaded me for years.

Sensations are built up from imagery in my head. Imagery and sensations work with one another, like the Aneros and prostate! It's how arousal forms, and grows. What would happen when masturbating is the sensations automatically call for erotic imagery )and vice versa in my mid-teens( — my brain is wired to begin a feedback loop of providing sensations with imagery. The imagery in turn reacts to the sensations. My thoughts are almost influenced beyond my control here, especially near the point of no return.

This is even more noticeable when stimulating the nipples. The second they are rubbed, my mind is predisposed to start generating erotic imagery almost without consent. The feedback loop begins, albeit with a Dry-O as a result.

And what were to happen if I applied this knowledge to prostate massage? Quickly after wondering, I gave it a try. Focus was placed in allowing erotic imagery to just generate from the sensations of the prostate. My abdomen began to flutter and heat up like never before. My excitement was fizzing, yet I remained completely relaxed. My mind kept at it: just let the imagery roll out and respond to the prostate sensations. The imagery came faster, and harder. It was becoming kinkier and savage in response to the strong pleasure. In turn, I couldn't resist moaning. This, too, built up the fast-building energy. Everything was fusing together, almost uncontrollably. For the first time, the Super-O was beginning to appear.

My moaning was getting louder and louder as I let myself go. This is it! I might actually cum if this goes on.

It didn't. I stopped. I gave in to fears that my moans would be heard )and worse yet, wake up neighbours(. My body and mind just dropped it out of embarrassment, but oh well! Personally, even if this would have been a Super-O, it wouldn't been worth it to having people question my solo performance.

But it remains: this newfound knowledge may help a lot in future sessions. )It won't( In the three years of using Aneros, I have NEVER felt myself become so lost to the orgasms. Everything I've heard about the Super-O now has much more clarity: the loss of reality, the full-body pleasures, the roaring. Now I know for sure, without a doubt, this was the fabled orgasm.

It's a massive bummer that it felt like vocal moaning made a lot of this possible! Someone who moans is truly loosing themselves to the pleasure, and I just can't bring myself to do that. Not that loudly, at least. I had a hunch that allowing myself to moan would break down some barriers, yet privacy comes above all else.

There have been other users who've achieved Super-O's without the need for such, so perhaps the same can be said for me. What a night.

Also: more precum!

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Mission to Pre

What else is there to do once someone has been rewired? My brain still wants to set goals and reach them — perhaps that was my biggest draw to Aneros all along.

So for me it's almost instinctively to…precum. Odd, one might say. All that ever does is create a mess, for most. That's true — but for a year or two now, I keep checking my dick for any substance during orgasms, like there's a missing piece. It doesn't feel fair that for others, who precum a bunch after using Aneros, I'm still left bone dry. I'm seemingly not alone here either, run through some quick Google results.

But as luck has it, there is something of an answer in form of Pygeum africanum! It's a form of bark from an evergreen, and is supposedly good for Prostate health. What it amounts to is helping in treatment of Prostatic Hypertrophy, countering the increased size of the prostate by shrinking it. But through shrinking it, supposedly, cowper's fluid is then filtered more tightly through the gland. There are plentiful user reports out there mentioning good results — some complaining their dicks become faucets after a month.

Yet there too are those who report little to no change whatsoever. And surprise, I fall into this statistic as well, after a few weeks of no outcome! )Or precum, rofl rofl( What a shame. Going by the on-going tests of those out there, brands do vary in effectiveness - as well as taking the supplement in combination with others. And overall health/diet, too.

Back to brands, I've been using Biovea's Pygeum, consisting of 100mg per soft gel. The ingredients here DO line up with other brands users abroad had success with. So perhaps all supplements can do is bolster what substances ALREADY exists, rather than actively develop it? In other words, if one doesn't naturally produce much precum, then Pygeum hasn't got much to work with.

Oh well!

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Guess that was a Super-O!

TLDR:
* Blank feelings for the first 15 minutes.
* Erotic material started some vibes.
* Kneeling like this produced a Mini-O:
http://www.exrx.net/StretchImages/TibialisAnterior/KneelingShin.jpg
* 20 minutes in, crazy quivering of abdomen, and shaking legs.
* Intense, radiant sensations from pelvis region. Moans, heavy breathing.
* 10 minutes of shaking, and strong sensations.
* Abdomen tenses, pushes Aneros out, then draws it back in.
* Session passes its peak after 35 minutes,


Well, I wasn't expecting the session to be this good. Before the orgasms I was feeling moody, and pissed off. I actually tried doing seven minutes of exercises to relieve tension and relax myself, but…it ended up doing the opposite.

But I figured the whole thing would be a dud in any case — just wanted to have at least 30 minutes so I tick the box on having a session. But no, it ended up being one of the best in recent memory. There wasn't any particular catalyst for making it so great, I think my body and mind happened to open up at the time.
Keeping the mind off the Aneros until time nears the session is important, though.

As you can interpret by the title, I'm still reluctant to accept whether or not I have Super-Os. It could be attributed to my idea of a huge p-wave — which is this surge of adrenaline. That's not a p-wave, as far as I know, but this adrenaline rush has happened when some new sensations occurs. )Much like a first-date, in terms of butterflies( Suffice to say, this feeling is amazing, as it makes the whole experience feel like a roller-coaster ride.

But my mind assumes that a Super-O has to consist of these huge bursts of adrenaline. There's some substance to this; users reporting on a Super-O often remark that they are "blown away", "mindless", "scared" and so on. Perhaps I do become mindless on occasion, when being swept away into fantasy-land, but otherwise I haven't experienced any of these in a year.

In saying this, the lack of these sensations would be down to experience. Said adrenaline is a result of a shock, because it is new and unexpected. I've become accustomed so much to Aneros usage that I can identify almost all manner of feelings now, so nothing particularly comes as a surprise.

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Burning arousal in one go

More and more, it begins to dawn on me that Aneros isn’t really all that necessary for some good hands-free orgasms. Frankly, it’s been that case since half a year into my journey. Today, I had roughly an hours worth of crazy Dry-Os — letting it finally ignite from a spark of arousal. The spark in question often develops initially from innocent glimpses of anything eye-catching — like a pin-up girl, or a throw-away sex scene in a film. Crap like that are plastered all over the net and TV. It flies past my mind, but about five days after the refractory period, libido hits its peak. It becomes increasingly tough to ignore that imagery.

And Thursday was such a case — it felt amazing. My perineum, prostate, ass… all were warm, tingling and buzzing; just like what users on the forum report! Tumblr also proves its a fantastic source of porno, as much as funny posts and awesome projects. I precum’ed a little too, and although one shouldn’t, I see it as a barometer on how active the prostate was. Quite a bit, from the looks of it.

One nice aspect about Anerosless sessions is the ease of experimenting on stimulation. The device isn’t in there having a party and making some noise, so it’s easier to see what works on creating unique sensations. I practiced different hums to see which effects the abdomen, for instance. I also touched around the body and neck, varying between rubbing and tapping — the neck certainly gets the prostate active.

Later that day, I decided to give the Progasm a go — the session wasn’t that effective, in fact. Some sweet moments did arise unique to the device, for sure, but it didn’t scoop me away into Orgasm world. Hmm.

It goes back to arousal levels. Must of blown a lot of it on that spark.

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Fantastic Session

TL;DR:
* Week of abstaining from anything erotic
* Builds libido perfectly for a session
* Sweet sensations, everything happens without any prompting
* Clamping solidly, continuously
* Allow breaks to naturally happen for around five minutes.
* Sex is on fire.
* I really hope the neighbours don't hear my moaning or humming.

Now I'm into a good routine of sessions! Every five to eight days or so is when the libido builds up enough that my mind urges for some sexual activity. That's something of a sweet-spot for Aneros session — and it's relatively new, first uncovered early into the abstaining for a month. The big build-up of libido in question is likely from divorcing myself of anything erotic during one week, most of all nipple stimulation, which can quickly cause an orgasm to burst the bubble. (However, it's great before a session to get some momentum going)

So basically, Aneros sessions of recent act as a valve to let off some sexual energy.

Or frustration; last night had a scenario of stressing needlessly on whether to have a session, partly due to the awkward after-effects detailed at the end. Pleasure waves began making unprompted rounds that day - a sign of libido hitting its peak. At the same time, I was feeling oddly grumpy and fed up. That alone can often break sessions, resulting in delaying them by a day or two. But I went with it. Besides, the Progasm may cause problems like last time and the session is only an hour.

Nope. Luckily the Progasm slipped in fine with virtually no pain. The time with it was…wow, better than ever. First session in a while where I legitimately felt like progress was made, even if 'progress' shouldn't be a part of my experience at this point. Sadly it's now difficult to explicitly clarify —what-- was so good, other than your typical "REALLY GOOD and EVEN BETTER!!!" I guess the "daunting, looming, gargantuan build-up" I mentioned in late 2012 is now commonplace when using the Progasm; maybe it's not a build up like I initially thought, but rather an orgasm. There's this slight wave of faint nausea and adrenaline before the Progasm and body starts dancing; varying the breathing pattern pumps up the p-waves frantically. Often the orgasms would be so tense, I'd clamp vigorously and my ass would start pushing out the Aneros — then shoot it back in, hitting the prostate. Drop of precum would often appear. Moaning nowadays is impossible to hold back, give or take.

The best part of the whole session (and those recently, too) is it all happens for me. I really don't have to do anything for the Aneros and body to start joining together and creating some high-octane magic. Again, the week abstaining is a key factor in all this.

The only issue is that with these sessions, my arousal gets so crazy high that I desperately want some release; naturally the entire load is blown on masturbating for a Super-T. And this is a complicated, angst-y crossroad: If I ejaculate, I'll feel like complete crap, and briefly sink into self-loathing. Or I avoid this, just take out the Aneros and remain on edge and turn into an emotional see-saw.

Both honestly have their pros and cons. Last night I just took out the Aneros, sternly avoiding a Super-T. I couldn't sleep much because (among other factors) my arousal was rocketing all over the place, even if I loved that feeling back in 2011. Even now, my knee is constantly shaking because my arousal is live-wired. My emotions are all over the place.

But alas, I'd be complaining likewise if I ejaculated. I'd be all grumpy and upset on what a looser I am, and behave somewhat irrationally. The day would probably be spent rotting on my chair! It's a win-loose situation, and this its one of the reasons why I hesitate on an Aneros session.

But whatever, amazing session, still glad I had one!

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Back to Aneros!

TL;DR:
* Finally a session!
* It wasn't much.
* Ass rejecting the Progasm.
* Lingering arousal )Damnit…(
* Actually feels like I need to pee when touching the prostate now.

One month has fully passed! The goose was cooked, and it was time to see how a session would fair — but only until my body and mind had a wanting for one. Today felt like such a time, possibly due to a near wet-dream last night.

And I’d also try having a session during the day! It’d seem the most appropriate — I’m wide awake and it’s just me in the house. Perfecto.

So in goes the Progasm! And…the session wasn’t that great. It certainly wasn’t dud material, as some sensations swelled outside of my control, but it wasn’t the surprise smack that my previous session gave either. What gives?

For one, the Progasm was not staying put. This model kept trying to slide its way out, like my ass was pushing it out of bed. I’ve heard some customers have this issue, but I’d never thought it’d occur just like that. Usually the ass pushes when clamping down on orgasms, but even then, devices often stay put. So that got in the way of letting the Aneros do what it should.

Secondly, ass pains aside, my mind just didn’t quite sink into the experience. It really felt like a trip back to 2012 when I’d sulk that nothing happens, even when doing nothing. Even some erotic material didn’t spur much, along with nipple touching. Maybe that’s a lie - some positions got the device going, but not for long. Despite that, I did precum a bit more than usual. Month build up and all.

After 30 mins, I ended the session and pulled the device out. It had ALREADY escaped halfway. I pondered on why the session wasn’t so great, with two schools of thought: The Progasm didn’t settle in like usual, and might of been too strong for now. Or, my mind wasn’t really in the mood after all, and maybe requires a few more sessions to sink in - perhaps a few more days of break for my brain to decide, even.

Interestingly I wasn’t too fussed by all this, which is unusual. It wasn’t a great session? “Whatever, I’m happy.” And that’s nice. I realised that there’s something of a trade-off with great orgasms — the mind has to be focused on sensing greater feelings, which would seem free of implications, but in concentrating on where great orgasms start, one then gets anchored into a world of orgies. It can easily drop into an addiction like it has before the month hiatus with me. There’s a fine line in the balance of happiness with life, and happiness with orgasms. After all, straight-up masturbation can be done quickly and forgotten about; multiple-orgasms and Aneros require meditative thinking, which unfortunately can linger into other relaxing states. )At least that’s the case with me.(

Perhaps having broken away from orgasms and arousal for a month has cleaned the slate more than I bargained for, and Aneros sessions may take a bit of time to simmer back into. But I hope in doing so, I don’t allow arousal to control me and my state of content again.

The aim: good times that don't linger in my head…!

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Paraphimosis woes [Updated]

Break from the norm once again: this time it's a medical condition effecting the sea-monster. Maybe you heard of this, or phimosis?

If not: Phimosis is when the foreskin is tighter than it should be, making retraction quite difficult, and possibly painful. Resolving it is quite straightforward, with stretching exercises — and if subscribed, steroid cream to assist the process.

But what if one allows the foreskin to remain tightly retracted, and let hard-ons occur? Then there's risk of the condition's older brother: paraphimosis. This is when the skin is trapped under the head, and by extension blood. Trapped blood can eventually cause bloated swelling to form, ballooning part of the shaft under the head. The (flaccid) result is this:
http://www.tabletsmanual.com/img/wiki/paraphimosis_1.jpg

Gross. And it can potentially swell to much larger degrees. Luckily, mine is only by that much, pictured above. Saying this, when errection does occur, the is compressed into a ring, or 'mane' of sorts, around the head.

I've had paraphimosis for as long as I can remember. Back in high school, I wondered why my skin wouldn't fully retract, but that never got me into a rut. Trying to do so did hurt, though. Early college days, however, I finally decided to pull my skin all the way down and saw what was by then paraphimosis. I was ignorant to this, of course, and simply assumed this gross appearance was me doing something I shouldn't off - namely pulling the skin too far back.

But this leads me to another pointer: this condition hasn't caused me any genuine trouble. Sure, erections certainly are sore, but that's when the skin is forcibly retracted. Even then, THAT pain goes away with either some steroid cream or perseverance. This all struck me as odd when recently I read that paraphimosis is sometimes considered a medical emergency, and early symptoms of it has to be dealt with ASAP. Wow! Again, maybe that's because it could swell to alarming degrees. Lady luck, and all.

But never mind that, I do want to get this checked out and dealt with. Back in 2010, I learnt of tight foreskin and headed to the doctors. Steroid cream, did the trick. But phimosis came back, and I still had that tight mane under the head. Second trip in 2012, I brought up what was then the discovery of paraphimosis. I was given a shrug, and reassured it's simply phimosis I should worry about.

But not now. Now I know how my phimosis could be stopped for good, and I definitely do want some surgery done to fix this ugly condition. Thankfully by today, new medical techniques are around to treat it, so circumcision can be avoided. On top of returning my penis to pain-free erections, it'd more importantly prevent the risk of bursts or infections.

EDIT:
Poking around Google today, I stumbled upon the real nemesis: the phimotic ring; more generally known as a ridged band. This is where PART of the foreskin is tight compared to the rest, and leads to the tight band I mentioned above. It's all clicked together now. Paraphimosis was never an issue because I may not actually suffer from it after all — it's when the skin becomes trapped severely behind the head, and for me, it was never an issue to pull it back up — just a nuisance.

So for a month I'll try stretching the tight part of the skin. If that doesn't fix things, I'll try 'preprutioplasty' surgery - which is a limited dorsal slit )which itself is a limited circumcision(. I'm still uncertain, and I suspect the paraphimosis may be a edematous swelling in itself, rather than simply tight forskin. Regardless, the surgical treatment above would certainly resolve things.

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Abstaining session

Been over a week since the 6th May, my blog last entry. I talked about having a break to build excitement — and last night's session made a point of that.

Over this week I abstained from anything sexual, and looking at anything sexual for that matter. No porn, fetishes, masturbating, touching, none of that. This was simply to make the next session a week later feel great, but I preferred this clean break from it all. In fact, just the THOUGHT of something like Aneros or a pin-up girl churned my stomach, it felt gross! My mind and body clearly needed this break, what a great choice I made.

What also felt gross, as the details above show, was the session. I stay in the city every week for work, for a few days. The few nights I sleep at the apartment are quiet and spacious — perfect, compared to the cramped conditions of my regular habitat )including virtually no sound-proofing(.

So Saturday is when I head back, and there was a growing urge to give the Progasm a shot whilst having the chance. At the same time, my conscience waves its finger on how lousy that decision is. It was stereotypically a 'Devil vs. Angel' on the conclusion front.

At first, no — "Let's just go to bed and move on." Then I had the bright idea to peek at some porn. It all caved in from there.

Slipped in the Progasm, and with no surprise, the sphincter was in pain. Per usual, I set the timer on my phone to 25 mins — when the alarm goes off and I'm still in discomfort, it comes out and the session ends. Unfortunately )Or fortunately!( this is where it went. Stools and gas are a real nuisance with that model…

But what brief moments of pleasure I did get were some of the strongest and passionate ever. When people wonder if it is like being fucked…I guess so, yeah. Pleasure kept building, and nothing would stop it. The Progasm had a mind of its own, and it wanted to be best buddies with the prostate. That gland didn't 'ignite' or 'crack' like some describe it, but it was swelling and taking the stimulations like a bitch. Even writing this section felt incredibly gross, uergh…

But my prostate got a real working afterwards, as evident by the constant feeling of needing to pee — the most pronounced I ever felt, and surges of horny lust washing over me every half hour. Then came 2:00pm where I was half-asleep, enough that most of my body dozed off as well. Except for my brain still dancing with sexual excitement. I could feel pleasure suddenly build in my lower half, like an energy condensate. In my mind I was moaning and borderline shouting. What was going on!?

Then I felt like I ejaculated, fortunately it was just a Dry-O! Except it wasn't, not this time. I nervously slipped my hand under my pyjama and…yup, I felt goo all down the side of my leg. I didn't just jizz precum, I jizzed a LOT of it. Fucking great…

Fortunately since it's transparent liquid, it wasn't too hard to clean up but still needed to send some things in for emergency wash this morning.

It was admittedly a great session, and that precumming moment was incredibly powerful and surreal. But still, I broke my body's natural abstaining rule. Back to abstaining, this time sticking to it. If my body wants to back into sexual times, it'll let me know.

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The key is 'excitement'

)NOTE: This only really applies to experienced users - for those starting off, your perspective may be different(

New entry is certainly a random occurrence, given how dead on its feet my blog is…!

My usage on the device is sparse these days - and that's nice. Recently I've set myself this challenge of not doing )and refraining from thinking( anything sexual for at least a week. I made it to day five before horny thoughts intrude. Keeping busy helps a lot, of course. In fact, being stressful at times these past few years aided as well, in its own broken manner.

Too bad that on Sunday or Monday, the absentee is gone. Back to being on heat — and not particularly thrilled.

It could be that all this MMO and sexual nonsense has developed into an addiction, in a strikingly similar fashion to someone jerking off four times a day. It's beginning to feel this way, and I need to keep it in check!

On top of helping me feel all around happy and 'at ease', it recharges the battery. You know the one. It helps a lot, though! And it's logical why. The more we do or think of something, the more it 'numbs' - our body and mind adapt. It'd of course make sense that the more we think or use Aneros within a week or so, the less pronounced it works. Counter-initiative. And if you want to look at it in a universal sense, it's basically boredom.

So by taking a good break, excitement can build. The mind rearranges what is at the forefront, and everything at the back simmers down - we recalibrate what is the norm and what is unorthodox. This was actually standard affair back when I started my journey; I'd get fed up that the device never really works and carry on with my life. Then a few weeks later, curiosity perks and excitement builds.

Now i've mingled too much with orgasming and Aneros as a whole. There is no spark left.

Still, writing this, I feel an urge - a lust. I want waves of pleasure, and a sense of release, but now is not the time.


ON ANOTHER NOTE:
The mind sure can produce some strange, new thoughts when you abstain - have you noticed? Like today I get some BIZARRE sequence in a dream of a…
motion-graphics looking grid. Like the miscellaneous motion graphics on the huge screens behind DJs/gigs? That sort.
Except this was in form of an odd touch-screen games for smartphones/tablets. The screen was made of dark blue circles )Anal cavity?(, enclosed around the square perimeter by lighter blue circles. In the centre was a white circle - presumably the Aneros.

Yes, I also need to break my addiction to those stupid smartphone games.

Touching it could move it around, but the aim seemingly was to make everything else change colour to white. White, I suppose, was the colour of orgasm.
And the trick was to use slow, subtle, to-and-fro motion. Gently move the white near the perimeter. The space starts convulsing, and the white circle grows - the permitter itself starts to ease from blue to white. It builds and builds.

The whole )part of the( dream was wanting what I didn't allow.
It was excitement.

Had similar dreams before - not quite as focused on a specific style, but still vague and intriguing. )Such as geometric shapes fusing together into one( Two dreams before led to a huge wet patch the next morning.

All this taught me something important though. When using Aneros, my mind shouldn't jump to what makes me flat-out horny. It should focus on what gets my excited, and that in itself can be very subtle thoughts.

The things I learn...

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Life in the Endgame

That's that, I suppose. I've come as far as I'll get.
Super-O's don't seem all that amazing to me, but I'm still holding onto the possibility that these amazing orgies haven't truly occurred yet. Perhaps I haven't fully let myself go in sessions.

It's been mentioned before, but my 'depression' doesn't help with the Aneros, MMO as a whole. Or vice versa!

Even then, the session last night was great. I've had pretty strong build-up to it after the past few nights - and that time I just went for it. What a great time! The weird fluttering in my stomach was strong, and my prostate went nuts. I found a position that worked great was kneeling on the bed, with the body (and sometimes femur) being upright. The p-waves grow very strong in the abdomen and pelvis.

In fact, my abdomen aches somewhat from all the tensing it has been doing! Or it could be mattress and sleeping positions causing it. I still have sexual energy flowing around me and erections will occur on a hairpin.

Great session - though these days I'm still fairly irregular on Aneros usage. Will use it maybe once every four weeks - which is a change from using it for a week and then going off it for over a month. Again, the device feels like it stirs depression as well as arousal.

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